Oh the confusion

Wow, the Importance of being Earnest was just funny. The confusion it created in the movie as well as the play was just funny. I even had to read it a couple times, due to the confusion, turns out sometimes I have a hard time following certain things if it is difficult. anyways I'm working so more on my paper, however, right now I'm just impatient to go home, since my room mate left this afternoon leaving me thoroughly distracted. I find these last pieces if reading material to be quite interesting even though I have reason to know what it is like to be an orphan, the closest thing I have come too is saying that I was an alien and I cloned myself to look like my sister... since we look like twins and are two years apart. Plus Ido not recall many rude things being said to me as a kid, becuase my mother was head of PTA you did not mess with Kimberly Hart haha plus I was Judy Harts daughter and Jennifer Harts sister up until I came here, sure my sister followed me here, but with my major being different I'm finally just Kimberly Hart.

One step closer...

So, as a funny thought, I was watching P.S I Love you over the weekend, and it mentions Miss. Havisham a few times, and I thought how when I had first seen this movie I had no idea who they were talking about and now I do. Wow, I learned something. ;) Anyways, I've been writing my paper since yesterday and I'm pretty far, however, turns out I needed a break since I started repeating random things in my paper. Now, I'm spending time editing a story my sister has been writing. As for Oedipus and Earnest, I must say that I read it, however, it seems not very carefully, it's hard to follow somewhat so I'm going to reread it so I can really grasp what I'm supposed to understand. Anyway, I don't really have much to say, it has been a long day so I should go and reread those plays. Only 5 more days of class, this is only truly exciting because I finally get to go home and be with my horses.

The Great Expectations of Matilda

Trying to figure out exactly what I would write both for this outline and for the real paper has been difficult I have spent most of the time thinking about it as I ran around and cleaning and watching movies and making sure things are all in order to the point where the only thing left to do was do the outline. So I decided that I am writing about the fact that Matilda gets drawn into the world of Great Expectations and treats Pip as a friend and part of the family on to realize in the end that she too has been on an adventure and does what even Pip couldn't do. I will also add some experiences of my own in which I too get drawn into the world of books when I'm in great need of a friend and someone to talk to. Here is my rough outline.

I. Introduction
At some point in ones life we all need to believe in something that nobody else believes in. Something that will be a friend in hard times, something you can talk to in something that people can’t see. Matilda was at such a point when Mr. Watts brought into class the novel Great Expectations by Charles Dickens. There was something in this novel that spoke to Matilda when she needed a friend the most, when she needed to be involved into a world that was different that her own.

II. Matilda finds a friend
A. By the time Mr. Watts reached the end of Chapter one I felt like I had
been spoken to by this boy Pip. This boy who I couldn’t see to touch
but knew by ear. I had found a new friend. The surprising thing is
where I had found him—not up a tree or sulking in the shade, or
splashing around in one of the hill streams, but in a book. No one had
told us kids to look there for a friend. Or that you could slip inside the
skin of another. (P 23-24)
B. Pip becomes the friend in a world unknown to her. She begins to escape
her own reality by using the book to find something to really believe in.
C. In her greatest time of need she finds comfort in Pip and believes that
he is just the person she needs to help her through the painful
experiences of life.

III. Pip becomes more than family
A. Now, I asked, where’s the value in knowing a few scattered and
unreliable facts about dead relatives when you could know all there is
to know about a made-up person such as Pip? She gave me a look of
pure hate. She didn’t say anything at first. Maybe she was afraid if she
opened her mouth too quickly all that would come out would be in
anger. I waited for the slap. Instead she kicked out at the sand around
Pip, then kicked out at the air over his name. “He isn’t a blood relative!”
She yelled. Well, no Pip wasn’t a relative, I explained, but I felt closer to
him than the names of those strangers she made me write in the sand.
(Pg 76)
B. She wants to learn everything there is about Pip, rather than her family
and Matilda’s mother hates that Matilda has been taught lies by Mr.
Watts and that Mr. Watts has given Matilda something else to believe in
except the beliefs in Heaven and Hell, nobody else should matter
according to her.

IV. Matilda Travels England again
A. From the town hall there was a short walk up the hill, and at some
point I realized that we were taking the same route as Pip had on his
way to visit Miss Havisham. The same route which was known to me,
having walked it before as a besotted reader on an island on the other
side of the world. (Pg 254)
B. Matilda feels as she has traveled the same path before, the book
Great Expectations has opened her world into a place where she had
never been and been drawn into this world so deeply, she felt like she
was reliving the experience she had when she once walked with Pip to
Miss Havishams.

V. Matilda Overcomes Pip
A. In a worshipful silence I smiled at what else they didn’t know. Pip
was my story, even if I was once a girl, and my face black as the
shinning night. Pip is my story, and in the next day I would try where
Pip had failed. I would try to return home. (Pg 256)
B. Matilda finally realizes that Pip has become more then a friend, more
than family and now his story matches along with hers. She would now
overtake all of Pip’s downfalls and return home, where her life began
and she can let go all the hardships that began way long ago for her.
C. She realizes her story coincides with Pip’s, she too has a Mr. Dickens
and she too went off to become a “gentlemen” of sorts.

VI. Conclusion
Matilda learns that through her journey and through the journey of Great Expectations that in the times of need Pip became a great friend that helped her through the roughest time in her life. She learns that Great Expectations is more than a novel to her, but it is a world beyond her own, one that she doesn’t quite understand completely, but through time finds a world that helps her through time. Pip then became family which started the path of jealousy and hurt that went throughout the entire story following the path that leads to the traveling of England where she realizes that she has traveled this same path before, and she then realizes that although she spent most of her years, wanting to be Pip and bringing him into her heart as a friend and as family that she too has been traveling in the same world as Pip, she has a Mr. Dickens in the form of Mr. Watts and she traveled a journey that she never would have expected. She too lived in a world of Great Expectations.

Random or not so Random

I live in two worlds. One is a world of books. I've been a resident of Faulkner's Yoknapatawpha County, hunted the white whale aboard the Pequod, fought alongside Napoleon, sailed a raft with Huck and Jim, committed absurdities with Ignatius J. Reilly, rode a sad train with Anna Karenina, and strolled down Swann's Way. (Rory Gilmore, Gilmore Girls Season 3). I use this quote because it explains how one can say they have been to a place, when they haven't due to the world of books. When that sonnet was first being read all I could think of was this speech, because I as many others have been in the world of books. I have been to Narnia, and Hogwarts, I have been in the forests of scotland and in world that are so made up I don't know what is up or down. Having the feeling of having been somewhere is that feeling of knowing what is out there. As Matilda in Mister Pip discovered that England was there even though she never had seen anything off of her little island. I believe that is going to be the subject in my paper, being drawn into a world beyond your own.

Pacific Ocean (Good old Wikipedia)
The ocean was first sighted by Europeans early in the 16th century, first by the Spanish explorer Vasco Núñez de Balboa who crossed the Isthmus of Panama in 1513, and then by Ferdinand Magellan, who sailed the Pacific during his circumnavigation from 1519 to 1522.

Here is my sonnet once again:

Much as a horse in dreams you walk through night,
As the snow falls in the winter you came,
You stood out in the dark as stars are bright,
The moment your seen nothing is the same.

You’re the bright future in the shattered past,
The understanding it takes to make do,
One may never know how to make it last,
The wind will blow and the trees will fall too.

Your warm brown eyes are looking into mine,
And the world seems to stop spinning right here,
We have always waited to see a sign,
And now nothing has to add to the fear.

Now that our life’s paths have began to mix,
There is nothing in the world left to fix.

Here is my sonnet, as I know I'm not the most excelent sonnet writer ever, I'm okay with it only being so good. After all I am just an Agriculture major and I do not think I will ever get talented with poetry.

Much as a horse in dreams you walk through night,
As the snow falls in the winter you came,
You stood out in the dark as stars are bright,
The moment your seen nothing is the same.

You’re the bright future in the shattered past,
The understanding it takes to make do,
One may never know how to make it last,
The wind will blow and the trees will fall too.

Your warm brown eyes are looking into mine,
And the world seems to stop spinning right here,
We have always waited to see a sign,
And now nothing has to add to the fear.

Now that our life’s paths have began to mix,
There is nothing in the world left to fix.

This sonnet is not perfect, but oh well after all right now I hve bigger concerns, such as will my foot heal after being crushed by a thousand two hundred pound animal. Anyway, I really enjoyed Mister Pip, dispite the tragic ending, I cannot wait until we get out of poetry it is not my best subject. However, I need to go to see if I can ice my foot, as well as water a dozen plants.

Crazy weekend...

Well, I have finished with Mister Pip, of course I had only 10 pages left to go when the weekend started, but oh well. I have finished my sonnet to the best of my ability, even if honestly I have no talent for writing poetry. As for why this weekend was so crazy well, here is my story: For the last month my sister and I have been trying to breed my friends horse, and well that has only worked so well, so over the last week we have gone out every day to see if she is ready to be bred. Well after the first day all four of the horses ran right over me, leaving me well with more scars resulting for horses, not the fisrt couple mind you, now after 4 days of having to chase the horses, getting run over and having them act like they have no training on them, we are still no closer to have the mare ready to be bred. Luckily I have had no more rearing horse, and round pen collapsing going on, which is a plus, since we are soon going to break the three year old horse, that will likely try to kill me. Anyways, I don't quite know what else to say, and now I'm busy talking to my friends online, so I suppose I should go and find something to do, probably reading some of the books I haven't been able to read since this class.

Found Poetry

So, for my found poetry, I found it in a strange place. See a few years ago my sister and I decided to make a holiday for ourselves. My holiday happened to be last saturday in which my sister gave me this book. The book was written from this horse trainer about techniques well in the first page I created my poetry:

Only limited light between
human and horses
certain connections
work brings between
human and horses
human and horses

Yes, many people don't care for horses as much as I do, however, I also decided who I am writing my sonnet too. See last year this farm I work at had a hard time, animals dying left and right. 1 Horse, 1 Dog, 4 Chickens, 1 Goat and I think that is about it except some goldfish. Well at the end of the year a new baby horse moved in and was named for her new beggining. So my sonnet is going to be to that baby horse that will in two years become mine. This took me awhile to think of, however, I now know most of the lines in my sonnet, yet I hate writing sonnets so who knows if I will keep it. Now I guess I need to look over information for my test as well as enjoy my chaos (also known as my kitten Aspen).

Sonnets

Trying to figure out what to write as a sonnet is very difficult, it is hard to try and sit down and write it. I have practically finished Mister Pip, even if I should instead be looking at the sonnet, writing mine as well as studying for the test. Oh well. However, information on my poem of class.

Connoisseur of chaos

Chaos doesn't truly exist it is order, whether we think it is not.

We know spring turns into summer, yet one thing affects another

Nothing is permenant it can be changed like chalk on a sidewalk.

When one thing seems like chaos it is usually an order we do not understand.

As well as chaos theory, one thing always affects another.

I didn't use any outside sources on this, I had more ideas on the content without looking too far into it.

Anyways, I don't have much else to say. I should go find out what my sonnet will be.

Ah Poetry.

As I write my found poetry, I realize that already i'm making fun of myself, so I really look forward to reading to the class. Of course I was planning on spending much of my weekend memorizing the peom and starting to figure out the sonnet, however, as unplanned as anything can be, it turns out that my kitten has a big allergy to some vaccine they gave her, so I have spent most of the weekend nursing my kitten back to health. I realize people think that animals are animals, mine aren't, I've had this kitten most of her life, after my sister and I drove over her on the street, so I have figured out through this who I am going to write my sonnet too, my kitten, because she is practically my child and she views me as her mother. Okay yes, this is a lot about my animals, but oh well. I have also started to read Mister Pip and I really got into the book, so I'm already about 95 pages in. The book is very interesting especially since I just read they book they talk about in it. Anyways I suppose I should probably get working on school stuff.

"We were being pecked at-- the way a seabird will turn over a morsel of crab in it's beak" Mister Pip pg 96

I found this quote quite interesting with how visually interesting it is, for you can see the seabird turning over the crab. This quote is one of the reasons why I find this book so ver interesting for the details speak to me.

The ends justifies the means.

Well, I have recently finished Ex Libris, The Arabian Nights, and Great Expectations, and many of my opinions are expressed through others. Ex Libris being a book about reading seems a little bizarre and almost difficult to read, yes some point I find wonderful, plagerism, eating of books and some other small sections are well written and interesting, however, as much as I am a reader, and yes I really read quite often, it was still more diffult to finish reading than what was expected. The Arabian Nights, however, was quite entertaining, the stories were vivid and allowed the imagination to wander into the difficult levels of the book. I found it quite funny to see the word ablutions in The Arabian Nights and this fact wasn't surprising, but since we talk so much of it in class and seeing it, I found it entertaining. Today in class, Professor Sexson said what seperates the sheep from the goats and I must say, that as a student in the College of Agriculture, I found that funny, that the one semester or session I do not have a Agriculture class we are talking of sheep and goats. One thing about "coincidence". As part of the back story, one of my roomates decided to put of a collage of scrapbook paper, since she works at Jo Ann's and on Monday I was looking at one and what do I see, a quote from Wallace Stevens. Of course this set me off into a fit of laughter, forcing me to then explain to my sister and my roommate why I was laughing so hard. They now think I am insane, however, I think they already believed I was. Well, I guess the "moral" of the story of this books we read would be that no matter how silly or strange the book is, there is always a chance to be having your imagination take off on you. Anyway, I'm off to memorize my poem if possible.

Not what I expected.

Well, the ending of Great Expectations by Mr. Dickens was not at all what I assumed the ending would be, throughout the book, you expect Pip to actually understand a little greater than what he does on who is controlling his life. Miss Havisham is a very controlling person and the odd fact is that if you do not read into her motives through the book, it comes as a great surprise to know that she is the mastermind of all the story. The fact that she had been training Estella to break hearts her entire life, yet forcing Pip to fall in love with her, is sad and you start to feel for pathetic Pip who just doesn't get it. As for the discussion in class about disappointment, my earliest memories of disappointments have been shrunk down, as I grew up, and really many of my earliest memories have been lost, since I really can't remember much before I was seven, however, I do remember one memory. My sister and I had a babysitter, and I remember being told I needed to to take a nap, while my sister got to watch, some television show I wanted to see, I honestly do't remember which one, but I through a fit and got put to sleep anyways. I remember being really upset and disappointed that I did not get to see the show. However, if I think about disappointment that is the greatest in my life today, mine would be when I expect to go out to the horses I train only to find the the owners of the horses have ruined something, not trimmed their hooves or something along those lines. As for the reading, I am still trying to finish The Arabian Nights, turns out that when I jumped to the second portion of reading, the process of being drawn into the story has become clouded by my own judgements. Well, I am off to try and finish the reading. I hope everyone is doing well.

Further Insights into the Second Day...

As The Arabian Nights was read to us today in class, it became clear that throughout the book's long history, the fact has not changed about the truth of how real, harems, infidelity, and murder were and still are in today's society as well as how real it all was back in this society this book maybe be just a retelling of events, but the way the world works is still very much the same. The picture that even the translator can show is vivid and allows one's mind to soak in the true emotion of the characters. The fact was brought up that Shahrazad was intellectual, and well read and how this rarely being a factor of brilliance in today's world, and I thought that oddly amusing, that unlike if it were written today, she was not described as beautiful. I also found it very thrilling to be comparing the beginning to Disney's Aladin showing again that even as children we are absorbing customs from distant lands even without our knowledge. As for The Great Expectations where, I have reached the chapters in which the convict comes back, and what I find oddly fascinating at this time in the book Pip is feeling so guilty when again in the world we live in now, even children would find this less true, due to video games and the world being brought up, by the television creating a sort of reality in which one doesn't have to feel guilty about such little problems. The way Pip starts thinking about life, and wanting to better himself with education, and reading amazes me, by the actual way he seems to want to be better then nothing and that truly brings out a interesting color to him. He obviously becomes a better and more talented reader and writer in the book, and I cannot wait until I see him doing just that.

First Day of Class

As far as first days of classes go i found this one quite interesting. The fact that Professor Sexson decided to come in a read out loud the first chapter, made the book actually seem like it would be more interesting. As I continue reading I find myself still drawing conclusions from the voices and the choices he made while reading the chapter. I have found that most of the books, in which yes I have started most of them are quite fascinating and all in all I feel like I will learn a lot. Being the person who supposively knows blogs very well, I guess I have partially an assignment don't I? Anyway, I suppose I should go read some more of the books, I have already found The Great Expectations and The Arabian Nights quite fascinating already sucking me into that world, so I am off to also be ready for our second day of class.